It only looks dark where I'm standing

Call me insensitive if you want, I don’t really care when figures in pop culture die. Now with that said I think it is sad when anyone dies but I am really amazed at the 180 degree turn in public opinion about Mr. Jackson. Two weeks ago he was a pedophile who got away with it. Now he is a musical genius and mourned by millions. So be it, I guess it does no good to speak ill of the dead. Unless of course the dead person is a really bad, like Hitler kind of bad, then it’s ok. Not to kick a dead horse but I think I’ll have to stop watching the news because they will be talking about this endlessly.

There are other things bothering me, well on my mind at least and unfortunately this is not the forum for discussing those things because of confidentiality. So grrr and stuff on that. Doing what I do for a living isn’t really polite dinner conversation. So anyway this or that happened at work today can you pass the pepper. Mainly people tell me all day I couldn’t do your job. It’s not personal, is the only thing I can say, you have to close off part of yourself to deal with it. The problem with that is finding a balance in keeping it distant but close enough to try to be helpful. That means sometimes standing in the mud and trying not to get it on your soul or taint your view of everyone. It’s dangerous because once you start looking at things from a particular point of view that is all you see.

Ever notice that when you or your partner is pregnant, pregnant people are everywhere. They are always every where but until you are in it you don’t see it. It’s the same with mud, once your covered in it that’s all you see. I don’t really mean mud.

Open your mind, problems can’t all be solved from a singular point of view and standing firmly on solid ground while trying to help is all you can do because if you reach too far over the edge you’ll fall into the abyss.

Sorry about the dark places in this but I am in the light from where I am standing it just may not seem like it from your angle.

So on a lighter note I am trying to find a way to draw and create more, perhaps I’ll get a camera again soon and be able to update some photos and things.

Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.


Ciao,

Now before I wake ...

My mind seems to work better when I need to be doing something else. Damn my mind because I want to be productive I just sometimes have to get the butterflies out of the line of sight. Perhaps that is just the pan in me not wanting to like the whole productive me. I’m not sure what the answer is to any of those questions people like to ask people in an all serious nature. I just say I want to be me. Who are you?, screams Mr. Daltrey as Mr. Townsend smashes out the notes.

I’m me you know me the invisible kid who lives next door. Well except that I’m not a kid I have them. I am me at every age still and that is the secret that I haven’t figured out how do I get all those me’s to be one person. Not sure on that one.

I woke up the other day from a dream, I don’t try to remember my dreams because they are usually unpleasant or at least I know what occurs is an echo of what once was and when I wake up it will be gone and I don’t want to relive the pain of all the loses again. This dream I know I was lying in bed smoking a cigarette. I woke up from that dream because I had thought I actually went and smoked a cigarette. I’m 46 weeks quit now and I had this dream that I was smoking and liked it. I can be around it and even drink now and not light up, I still have the urge to smoke but I haven’t and it remains a challenge nearly every day. Well enough for now.


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

While Dora was singing in the background

Why is it that anything that benefits others directly and only benefits other secondarily is looked on negatively. Well let me rephrase that, why is it anything that benefits those in the lowest social segments of society directly and everyone else secondarily is looked at as a burden. Investing in real education of all people benefits everyone indirectly by having an entire society that is able to understand many things and if need be perform many tasks and not just a single one thing . Advancing the health care of all makes for a society which is more productive and a health care system which is not overburdened by providing services for people whose illnesses were preventable with basic care if it were available.

However, everyone says an economic policy like trickle down economics is wonderful. It is the same thing in concept, except that a very small group receives the direct benefit and that group is supposed to help others. The problem is that this idea didn’t work because those who got the direct benefit only helped themselves and walked away from the others.

The concept that political people seem to miss completely is that all governments and systems are not merely ideologies or written laws on paper, they are living things with living people and react positively or negatively depending on the changes to how those ideas and laws are applied. Every system of government is a collective and depends on the success of citizens and that all the citizens help one another achieve success.

Having a good idea and not having any idea on how to make it happen isn’t any less of a good idea but it remains an idea. Many great ideas need the help of everyone to succeed. It does not diminish the quality of the idea or result. Peace is an idea which requires everyone’s full effort to not only not harm others themselves but to stand up against any harm to any person. Solon stated the perfect society is one where every person in the society sees any wrong doing in the society no matter the victim as being against themselves. Every person takes equal offense to a failure and every person takes an equal part in correcting the problem.

If one person can not read, we all suffer for it, If one person dies of a preventable disease we all suffer for it
If one person isn’t working we all bare the burden. And we all gain from the successes of anyone


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

something or other

It is very difficult to transcend the bonds on how we view the world. How we define the world and those in it. While our nature may be one which is brutal and derisive we do have the ability to become more than just simply reacting to stimuli. We can see that beneficial action outweighs self serving action. We are interconnected to each other not just in this generation but to the generations past and those to come. These living generations have lost an understanding of that interconnectedness of humanity. Everything we do is tied to the past, the present and the future. The ripple of each action varies from the smallest to tidal waves.

Mostly we see ourselves as being afloat on the water or we see our selves at the shore and the water is either a blessing or a bane. Seeing that we are always being acted upon by the water around us. However we are the water as well and our actions either calm the water or create the havoc around us.

We evolve, our understanding evolves, however we don’t all evolve at the same rate and at times the old ways slows the evolution and tears at it unable to see that each path only takes us so far along on the journey and a new path begun in order to move forward. We need to see that we are as much the whole and as we are separate individuals not a one or the other.

Ok I’m getting out of the deep end now and I’m going to wade in the shallow end for a bit…. Transformers Rise of the fallen rocked… I would say better than the first one.


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

a small repayment

Well I had several other thoughts today and started writing about other things. Michael Jackson dies, Farrah Fawcett dies and several thousand other people. We don’t know them. We really don’t know Mr. Jackson or Ms. Fawcett we just think that we do because or bits that have been flashed in to our lives.

Not to sound cold about it but everyone dies. I will at some point, you will at some point as well. Every single person who reads this will die. Will CNN or MSNBC cover your death or mine. Probably not. I won’t say they won’t because they may.

I’m not sure that the passing of actors and musicians warrant national coverage or even global other than to say they are gone, mourn their passing as you choose but this isn’t really earth shattering news.

I respect everyone’s right to mourn the passing of persons meaningful to them. I admire the practice of persons going back to the land. Just as a person felt they were no longer useful to the community they would wander into wild and then go to the flora and the fauna. That is a very polite way of saying things but either dying of exposure and rotting into the ground or having the animals kill and eat you and what they don’t eat rots into the ground. A small repayment to the planet for sustaining one’s life for the years


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

I've found myself on a soapbox, I promise not to stay long

I was thinking today that in our society there isn’t anymore solidarity. Well unless you are in an extremist group. Then it’s all about solidarity because the extreme no matter what it is offends people so you have to united to stand the mass of tides that crash against you.

Solidarity though just as decent people, set aside politics, religion, ideological principles, and the litany of other things that divide us. We don’t stand together.

We look as the 50’s and before and think how backward these times were. Were they really all that backward. As we loose more and more of ourselves as people into the sea of the faceless technological wasteland, we drift further and further apart and then extremist get to take over.

Why because they are united. They have solidarity.

Why bother, because if you don’t bother you won’t have a say when the dictator knocks on your door and says dance the way I say or else.

No this isn’t about politics, religion or anything else. Just people being support of each other. Not grabbing for power, not grubbing for money, fame or some other meaningless thing in the big picture.

Solidarity with your fellow person for being alive, breathing and saying NO to the petty, greedy, power hungry, and others who only see themselves as the most important person in the world. You aren’t any more important than anyone else. You may have more things but that doesn’t mean you are better just someone else.

As the average person support what is right, don’t bow down just because it’s safe. Well guess what it’s not safer it’s just delays the end. Die alone or stand together.

I think it’s better to stand up and say, No your agenda is wrong., your way of thinking is wrong, your way of doing things is wrong , your petty power hungry ideas, actions and attitudes are wrong. You are wrong. It needs to be better and change.

One voice alone is only one voice and is easy stifle, united voices resound

Make the world better, make you work better, make you life better and not just your life be everyone’s

Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

Too tired to come up with anything original

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Coffee
2. Last phone call: My son
3. Last text message: My son wishing me happy father’s day
4. Last song you listened to: not sure
5. Last time you cried: … not answering

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yes
7. Been cheated on: Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yes
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: yesh

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:
12. Black
13. Black
14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Not exactly
19. Found out who your true friends were: I’ve known that for a while
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yes … now with 500 plus people I dare you to figure it out
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: over 100
23. How many kids do you want?: I have 2
24. Do you have any pets: two cats
25. Do you want to change your name: yes
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Had take out with an ex-girlfriend
27. What time did you wake up today: which time ..... 8:30 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: something not worth while
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: not exactly sure
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Christmas Day 2008
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Harmony
32. What are you listening to right now : Movie
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: lack of money and one person
35. Most visited webpage: www.facebook.com
36. Whats your real name: Invisible Don
37. Nicknames: King of the Bastards
39. Zodiac sign: Dragon
40. Male or female?: Not sure
41. Primary School?: I went to 5 of them
42. Secondary School?: I went to 2 of them
43. High school/college: I went to 5 of them
44. Hair colour: Brown.
45. Long or short: longer
46. Height: tall enough to ride the rides at amusement parks
47. Do you have a crush on someone? Sort of
48: What do you like about yourself? I live
49. Piercings: yes
50. Tattoos: yes
51. Righty or lefty: right

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Left hand
53. First piercing: Ear
54. First best friend: Cleo
55. First sport you joined: Baseball
56. First vacation: that I remember some park with a giant mushroom house
58. First pair of trainers: nike

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: no
60. Drinking: no
61. I'm about to: go to bed
62. Listening to: move
63. Waiting on: the hammer to fall

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids? : new ones? No I love mine
65. Get Married?: if there is a person who is interested
66. Career?: looking

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: just right
70. Older or Younger: Depends
71. Romantic or spontaneous: yes
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: eh
73. Sensitive or loud: not loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: too many trouble makers already

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: yes I have
77. Drank hard liquor: yes I have
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes I have
79. Sex on first date: yes I have
80. Broken someone's heart: yes I have
82. Been arrested: yes I have
83. Turned someone down: Yes I have
84. Cried when someone died: Yes I have
85. Fallen for a friend?: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Most of the time
87. Miracles: No
88. Love at first sight: No that is called LUST
89. Heaven: no.
90. Santa Claus: Yes
91. Kiss on the first date: yes
92. Angels: depends on what kind of angel

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: yes
95. Did you sing today?: Yes badly as always
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 6
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: wouldn't
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Not the falling part it‘s the sudden stop at the end when your heart gets torn from your chest that I don‘t like .
100. Posting this as 100 truths? sure


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,