Sunday, May 31, 2009

follow the rules

Well as Steinbeck penned, “the best laid plans of mice and men oft go awry“. Mine especially so, or so it would seem. I’m not sure why that is though. I have the whipping boy theory, which is that Karma like anything else has a whipping boy and I fill that role for Karma. Now see it would be so delicious if it were by choice and I was a masochist and enjoyed such things. However I’m not and the only one deriving any pleasure from this is the sadist. So I ask for happiness karma says sure but it will cost you double in pain.

The other thing is just bad timing. No fate, no karma, no divinity influence just pure by chance bad luck.

And it’s not that really horrible things happen all of the time, just things that are stumbling blocks, closed doors, locked windows, jammed up streets… barricade after barricade in the way. Frustration mounts. Simple tasks for anyone else become 12 step programs and on and on.

I know I’m not perfect, nor is life perfect but it seems, at least from the outside that many other people get a pass. Especially those who ignore the rules. Now I’m all for some disobedient behavior when it is necessary. However, the world tends to work better when there is order rather than chaos, well at least it did once. Now the looking glass world rule and chaos wins. Every one who doesn’t play by the rules is rewarded and those who do are punished.

Look at the world mess we are in now, who wins those who squander and waste, the losers are those who followed the rules. The grasshopper has locked the ant out of the house and is allowing him to freeze because the rat bastard has the music up too loud and can’t hear the ant knocking on the door. So then if the ant breaks down the door to get in who looses the grasshopper or the ant?

They say you make your own happiness, that is true but too many other people are trying to ruin that good time because they think you should be responsible for them having a good time.

I don’t know… just follow the rules… seriously is that too much to ask?


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

lost and found

I should start a lost and found for my voice or at least a metaphorical all points bulletin for it. I find it I loose it, repeat … just like the shampoo bottle. That could be a never ending process for someone who took things extremely literal. I digress…often.

The point is that I loose my voice … well more to the point I let the outside voice stifle my voice. I pre edit and censor myself from what other people may think about what I have to say. There is a large part of me that says to hell and be damned those who see things differently than I do when I know I’m right or even right by how I choose to live my life. Albeit by a sometimes lax set of moral principles they are my own. So no more I know I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again most likely.

So I will do what I can to write what I think and forget the pressures and voices of peers when I write. If you misunderstand something ask me what I mean. If something offends you, ask I probably did not mean it to offend or if I did I will be blunt about it and you’ll know when I mean to offend you because I will say to your face what I think about you. Unless of course you have anything at all to do with my paycheck, then I’ll keep that to myself as decorum dictates. It still doesn’t mean that I don’t think what I think but those are my thinks to think and not to taint anyone opinion about said person or persons with my own opinion. Because when it comes to money in this economy it’s all C.Y.A and truth be damned. Makes me wish for a world order as Rodenberry stated where the accumulation of wealth is not the function of mankind but the betterment of humanity. Truth in a world order like that makes sense even when it is unpleasant but not in our own cash above all other gods if you please truth is down on the lower rungs of that ladder.

So I’ll end my random mishmash of thoughts with this I’ll be writing and you may not like it or you may but I will be writing. I do hope you’ll be reading. Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

nothing new under the sun

Someone or other perhaps some philosophical Greek dude a long time ago once said there is nothing new under the sun. Meaning that nothing will change and it’s all been done before. In a sense that is true. Really the formula one racecar is nothing more than an improvement of the first wheeled cart which is really just an improvement to dragging something that is too heavy to carry.

However the improvements are nice.

Looking at the world as it’s all been done before is like sitting in a room where all the windows have been bricked or boarded up and the doors sealed. Nothing in or out… nothing changes.

Don’t get me wrong stability isn’t a bad thing… yeah ... random thought but that is a whole other story … still really???...beyond stupid. I digress.

The idea that no change is sometimes great and other times fatal.

The trick I guess is to figure out which things to change and which ones to leave alone.

When giving advice about what to change in someone else’s life though are you giving the advise as what you would do or what you think they should based on how their life is not your own. Who benefits by your advice? Do you or do they?

Monday, March 30, 2009

minutes

We fill our days with things we think are worth the minutes. Then we find we don’t have the minutes to do the things that fill us.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Bitter?

Bitter?

Not really, why do you ask?

Why is it that when ever someone expresses a level of disillusionment with how others behave and act toward you, our assumption is to label that person as bitter.

Excuse me????

Bitter is not seeing your own faults in your failures and giving up. Being stepped on, used, lied to and taken advantage of and other things is not being bitter. It may be whinny if it goes on continually. However, bitter it is not.

I’m confused, exhausted, baffle, bamboozled, done in, sold down the river, lost my faith in humanity at times.

I know I’m not perfect and I make mistakes. I admit to them albeit sometimes reluctantly but I will say I’m wrong and mean it when I am wrong and not call the person a bad names when I am wrong.

So with that let me emote my emotions and express myself.

In other news

I saw a movie in the first week it is out - The watchmen.

I did not read the graphic novel and I may not or I may I have not decided if I’ll jump on that band wagon or not. So not being familiar with the source material I can’t say if the movie was true to the source or not.

I did do some reading about who was who before hand.

So some characters I think were true to the source and others were not. I think the movie portrayed a look at our lack of culture and misplaced ideology and worship of immediacy rather than prosperity.

I did like the movie as a whole. I think Jackie Earle Haley is deserving of high laurels for his portrayal of Rorschach. He was believable in every regard to the character’s essence of an unyielding steadfastness to his beliefs even to his own destruction. Better to be dead than to compromise your beliefs. Which I think is something we don’t see often any longer so many of us, including me have a flexibility in your morality and beliefs we dare not stand up for them for fear of a backlash.

I give it a 4.5 on the invisible don 0to 5 scale for movies.
Good action, great effects, and there is a message there too.


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Confused?

Confused

Why is that when a man knows how to take care of housework, clean, shop, do laundry he isn't a worthy person to consider as a person to be in a relationship or is otherwise unmanly. Women as much as men feel he is an open target of ridicule for being willing to do these things.

However these same women will bitch, moan and complain that their significant male other is a worthless, piece of crap that doesn't cook, clean, shop, do laundry or other helpful things around the home?

If someone can give me a valid answer for that I would really like to know.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

The natural world is not a theme park

Today Stunt-boy was sick and didn’t go to school. He is feeling a bit better now later in the evening however now I’m feeling like I’ve gotten what ever it is that he has gotten.

Yay, that’s exactly what I need. I do not have any problem taking care of my children when they are ill and if I’m work place wants to complain about it I’ll have something to say which won’t be fun to hear.

However, I hate being sick myself.

With that said was reading about a book I’m still trying to get finished. “Into The Wild.” I had the same problems with another book by the same author, “Into Thin Air.” The point is that I’m not particularly fond of the writing style or really the point that Mr. Krakauer attempts to build an epic level sympathy for the main character, Chris “Alexander Supertramp” McCandless, as if he did some great thing by falling off the grid then dying in the middle of nowhere Alaska.

I know this has been said by several thousand voices before me. I don’t the Mr. McCandless is a hero, in fact I think his death was due to his own arrogance that he was smarter than most people he came across and felt that he could do anything that he heard or read without attempting any practical application of what he was attempting to learn.

I do admire his attempt to cutting himself off the grid in a sense but he didn’t really but more so than most people ever do in their lives. There are people who live off the grid and we don’t hear about them - because they don’t end up dead in the woods. Do I have what it takes to live in the wild. No, I don’t. I recognize my limitation and realize that I could live without many of the things I have and I’m working on eliminating the excess from my life.

The truth is that the corporate world wants us to crave and think that we need all the crap they are putting out there. While I can agree that the world that McCandless was running from needs to change and the frustration of seeing just how corrupt the corporate world really makes most people feel like running away. However, shouldn’t you try to fight the horrible world rather than runaway from it but if you do decide to run away from the world do it with a bit more sense.

The natural world is not a theme park, you don’t buy an admission ticket from some teen in a cage working for spare cash so they can buy x-box live membership credits. It’s the real deal out there and mother nature doesn’t show any mercy, she doesn’t feel sorrow or remorse for taking the lives of those who do not respect that life is cruel. McCandless died and that is sad, and his family surely lives with so many unanswered questions as to why and what if, however if he had used his obvious intelligence to take some preparations he would perhaps be alive today. He is not a hero in my eyes just a person who failed to realize their own limitations and was poisoned by the very society he was running away from that if you go you get to ride all the rides. Well you don’t get to ride all that rides and if you try to ride the rides which you aren’t ready for in nature you just might die.

Perhaps you can get through the book better than I can. The movie was ok and would give it a three over all.


Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,