It's all connected trust me

When you want something bad enough you see it all around you. You notice the little subtle nuances of it everywhere. You loose focus on every thing else around you. Good or bad it makes no difference, nothing is as important as the thing you want.

Then you have to wonder can everyone read it on you, or smell the desperation of wanting that one thing? Do you radiate that thing you want?

Other people want the same things that you want and maybe just as badly. However we don’t make easy on the other seekers.

The thing too is that I’ve been trying to find this thing for a while now. The thing is now I’m not sure what it is that I want anymore. Do I want the truly organic thing or do I just want the prepackaged predictable thing.

A truly virtual world would be awesome, I know I would be a person addicted to that sort of thing. I can give or take the MMORPG things because there isn’t really a sensory aspect to those worlds.

Total immersion into a virtual place, then depending on the parameters the laws of physics, gravity, all the pesky things that keep you from really enjoying your full potential could be altered to allow things to be different there and more in your control.

Isn’t that really the thing that scares us all about anything we seek is not being in control.

But really we delude ourselves into the idea that we have control in the first place. Sure we set our alarms to wake us up as a particular time but we don’t control time it moves on without a seconds thought about you.

We can get in a plane but we can’t really fly or thumb our noses at gravity.

You may even burn something up but all you have done is change how those particles exist and you haven’t really destroyed anything

Yes you may have deprived someone of how they liked the current arrangement of those particles but they still exist just in a less desirable form.

We even invent governing structures, political, economic, moralistic, to feel that we control the world around us.

But we don’t have any control over any of it. Our minds are free to do as we please but we convince ourselves we aren’t free that someone else has the control

Unfortunately other’s believe that the some are in control and help them enforce these invented rules that serve in most cases not the best for mankind but what is best for a particular set of men. I mean all people men and women not just the male gender when I say men. It can mean different things. Don’t be so literal all the time. See it’s like this when I say oh she is dating some loser. If I’m talking about someone who I have real chance of dating he probably is a loser. If I’m talking about Ashley Greene from the Twilight series and say she is dating some loser I mean some hugely successful guy who has it more together than me and I don’t stand a chance of replacing him so rather than feel inferior outwardly I’m just gonna say he’s a loser and it makes me feel better. You probably understand all the hate the Beib gets now too. So not the point though.


The thing is we are really our biggest obstacles, we get in our own way, we get in the way of other peoples dreams all for the fear that we won’t reach our own if someone else gets theirs. And sometimes we think we want a thing but we really may not want it as much as we think we do. Why do you want what you want, really and truly, You can tell me I’m a good secret keeper.

Wow this jumps to more places than my ADHD dog trying to get at a squirrel.


Well, that’s all for now, other stuff tomorrow most likely

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Mini rant, Lots of dodgeball and I don't know what is going on.

Mini rant, Lots of dodgeball and I don't know what is going on.

Well it’s officially snowing …boo, yuck and phooey even. Normally I’m not like this, I love the snow, but as of late not so much. I don’t have the time, money or money for snow at this point so it can go the hell away. Yup I said hell as in Ay-ch Ee double hockey sticks with a side of Firetruck and torque too with a bit of backward suction. Indeed.

So I’ll be shoveling in the morning. I don’t wanna shovel, I don’t like the shovel. It’s ugly and mean.

I’m sleepy

Dodge, to avoid
Dip to lower in dance or to avoid
Duck, an aquatic fowl or to quickly avoid
Dive, to plunge from a height into water or to avoid
Dodge, a car you should avoid both in standing in front of while it’s moving or from purchase.

The 5 D’s of dodge ball…as in Imma playin dodge ball

There are several of us aplayinda dodge ball, I don’t think any of us really suspect that this is actually going to be physical activity. You know move your mass around rapidly avoid being hit by big red rubber ball POINK… nothing really makes a noise like a dodge ball hitting a person

Nothing really makes a sound like a wrench hitting a person either but we aren’t dodging wrenches.

We aren’t dodging wrenches right? Seriously we aren’t dodging wrenches…

It says right here in the bylaws of the ADAA that would be the American Dodgeball Association of America that only players hit by a live ball below the shoulders including the clothing are out.

Whew not in the face… I won’t have to shriek like a little girl … hey I’m ugly enough I think the one trip down the tree was enough.

And I may have BDD … yeah that I say it’s the OFUC but now I’m told that I don’t but what I really have is BDD. I don’t think that’s correct but we’ll check.

Back to Dodgeball, yes Cotton it’s exciting less than a week away, Well Pepper it’s about to unfold anything can happen.
Oh I am shamelessly stealing from that moving.
But we didn’t steal our name from them like another team, well borrowed yeah they are the Average Joe’s

Thankfully no one took the purple cobra.

We are the Oneders, (wonders incase you haven’t seen the movie… which I haven’t)
But if we had chosen a rather menacing name we may have been shamed into not wearing our shirt because my prediction is we are going to make the dysen vacuum look like a toy, gravity look like a myth, a black hole an escapable place, yup that all means suck, as in suck in a big big way,

But you know what we’ll have fun doing it.

Big Fun just like the shirts in Heathers without the walking into traffic and dying part or the dying in the woods, and not all being named heather either… and our shirt say Oneders and not BIG FUN but it is the same

BIG FUN

I’ll let you know how much and if I can talk stunt boy into recording it, maybe even a video of the MASS A CREE of our team

But to put a positive spin on this to para-phrase-ically quote Peter LaFluer, AKA Vince Vaughn “we don’t know who our best player is it could be anyone one of us”

BIG FUN

WHOOOSH >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> POINK !

Not in the faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

POINK POINK POINK

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

In other news…


…I’m so confused, so much more than my normal confused … I don’t know what to do… Oh I know what I would do were I in a position to do but no it’s gotta be confusing.


That’s all for now other stuff tomorrow, have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood.

Ciao,