It's all connected trust me

When you want something bad enough you see it all around you. You notice the little subtle nuances of it everywhere. You loose focus on every thing else around you. Good or bad it makes no difference, nothing is as important as the thing you want.

Then you have to wonder can everyone read it on you, or smell the desperation of wanting that one thing? Do you radiate that thing you want?

Other people want the same things that you want and maybe just as badly. However we don’t make easy on the other seekers.

The thing too is that I’ve been trying to find this thing for a while now. The thing is now I’m not sure what it is that I want anymore. Do I want the truly organic thing or do I just want the prepackaged predictable thing.

A truly virtual world would be awesome, I know I would be a person addicted to that sort of thing. I can give or take the MMORPG things because there isn’t really a sensory aspect to those worlds.

Total immersion into a virtual place, then depending on the parameters the laws of physics, gravity, all the pesky things that keep you from really enjoying your full potential could be altered to allow things to be different there and more in your control.

Isn’t that really the thing that scares us all about anything we seek is not being in control.

But really we delude ourselves into the idea that we have control in the first place. Sure we set our alarms to wake us up as a particular time but we don’t control time it moves on without a seconds thought about you.

We can get in a plane but we can’t really fly or thumb our noses at gravity.

You may even burn something up but all you have done is change how those particles exist and you haven’t really destroyed anything

Yes you may have deprived someone of how they liked the current arrangement of those particles but they still exist just in a less desirable form.

We even invent governing structures, political, economic, moralistic, to feel that we control the world around us.

But we don’t have any control over any of it. Our minds are free to do as we please but we convince ourselves we aren’t free that someone else has the control

Unfortunately other’s believe that the some are in control and help them enforce these invented rules that serve in most cases not the best for mankind but what is best for a particular set of men. I mean all people men and women not just the male gender when I say men. It can mean different things. Don’t be so literal all the time. See it’s like this when I say oh she is dating some loser. If I’m talking about someone who I have real chance of dating he probably is a loser. If I’m talking about Ashley Greene from the Twilight series and say she is dating some loser I mean some hugely successful guy who has it more together than me and I don’t stand a chance of replacing him so rather than feel inferior outwardly I’m just gonna say he’s a loser and it makes me feel better. You probably understand all the hate the Beib gets now too. So not the point though.


The thing is we are really our biggest obstacles, we get in our own way, we get in the way of other peoples dreams all for the fear that we won’t reach our own if someone else gets theirs. And sometimes we think we want a thing but we really may not want it as much as we think we do. Why do you want what you want, really and truly, You can tell me I’m a good secret keeper.

Wow this jumps to more places than my ADHD dog trying to get at a squirrel.


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