Am I me? Are you, you?

Who are you? How is it that you define you? When people ask who are you, what do you say? What made you decide that is who is you? Maybe you don’t know. Perhaps you define you by what you do. I do a lot of things but I wouldn’t necessarily say I am that thing. I walk but I’m not a walker, I sit but I’m not a sitter, I eat but I’m not an eater and so on and on and on. Which of the things we do becomes the thing that we see as ourselves. Is that me I see the same thing others see when they see me? Do they see a different me, not a better or worse me but just not what I see when I see me. Do they see that you do what you define as you or not. Have you ever asked someone who you are? Say you are an actor and your friends have never seen you act. Are you an actor or are you just their friend or a sister or brother or some other role in their life that you don’t necessarily have from them in your life. Well the sibling thing is different but is that all you are to them and not the “you”, you see as you. It doesn’t mean you aren’t an actor but to them you aren’t because it isn’t real for them in how they see you. I see myself a lot of ways but I’ve always been able to separate out that what I do for money as this isn’t really who I am as me, not entirely at least. I like what I do mostly but that isn’t me in total. I don’t know if I really know me. Part of me is a writer but do I write enough to be a writer. What is enough is there a limit or a sign you much write this much to be a writer. Do people have to acknowledge what you do for it to be what you are? Do they have to approve. Did Warhol call himself an artist or it that what other people have called him and the fact that I don’t think what he did is art make him not an artist. I don’t do enough doing of stuff that isn’t work or just not doing something. I work and I am a worker but that isn’t the “me” I see. I watch but I don’t see myself as a watcher. I game and I do think of myself as a gamer but I don’t know that I’m good at that and by some standards I’m not very good at being a gamer. However I like that I am a gamer. There are things I want to be but I’m not or at least not anymore. I’m alone but I’m not really a loner and I entertain myself well enough that I’m not lonely in my aloneness. Still I am alone. There are things I am but I no longer have to do. I am a parent but I don’t really have to parent my children anymore or at least not in the way that most of us think of parenting. Our roles change and we change or we don’t change. Either can be problematic but because you don’t have to perform tasks related to the you, you are doesn’t mean that isn’t who you are. Doing not doing, being not being? What does it all mean? I felt for sure I would have it all figured out by now. I still look at other people and think surely they have the answers they know who they are and what they are. Perhaps or are they like ducks on a pond above the surface it always looks calm but under the water there can be churning feet to move against a current. Maybe no one really has it all nailed down and they just fake it. I need to do more doing of stuff that defines me as me, the “me” I want to be, not necessarily the “me” you see. Do you need to do more stuff that makes you, you? Perhaps you are happy being the “you” others see as you or perhaps you are not. Well, that’s all for now, other stuff to follow most likely Happy Birthday if it’s your birthday and a very merry un birthday if it isn’t your birthday Thank you for reading, please subscribe, Have a great day and play nice in the neighborhood. Ciao, PS 3 Gamer Tag: invisible don PO Box 4425 Roanoke VA 24015