Be like the squirrel ... or not it doesn't really mean anything it's just a title

So I was busy being healthy this morning. I know ugh… but before all of that I did wake up before my alarm again and I ignored it when it finally did go off and listened to the rain hitting the roof of the house. Part of my roof is metal so it’s a very different sound than other types of roofs. I find it to be rather soothing just hearing the rain falling.

Lots of thoughts swimming around in the brain in the rain and remembering something a friend told me about thinking and mornings. Trying to figure out things and stay within the confines of today and letting Aldo do his bit too. Some days it is really easy to just follow Aldo along the path and paired with where I’ve been sights, sounds and feels are all there and it is very easy to want to stay there but it’s one sided. So I come back.

The rain very nearly lulled me back to slumber but I want to get things done so I got up and got into the healthy mode. And then one of the lyrics from Jack wails out something about a cigarette and there I am thinking mmm … a cigarette would be really good.

What the hell, it never goes away and that thought will just randomly pop up in my head, you know what would be good right now a cigarette. Usually there is a trigger that is pretty identifiable now and it’s not a craving. This time it was the mention of them in a lyric but in a way that connected to my experience with smoking. In case you were worried I did not smoke anything.

Oddly I still have the pack of smokes in the freezer from when I quit. I’m sure they simply awful and possibly even unhealthier than they were two and half years ago when they were put into the freezer.

In other news

There is so much spinning around in the back of my mind and at the front part of the time. I know what I want I’m not exactly sure how to get there.

Random thought

I like sad songs even when I’m not sad, they don’t make me sad either … well mostly

Litter box thought

I’m doing this too early in the day I’ll probably have to do it again later.



That’s all for now, other stuff tomorrow

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