So in case you are lost already, which given my style is possible, I probably have a moral compass but I’m pretty sure my compass doesn’t point to the same place as other peoples.
Well all those pesky little rules really just don’t make much sense to me. They are really just annoying. I won’t get into which of these little rules they are because some of them are really rather “big” rules for other people.
Now I’m not talking about the really big ones like killing and kidnapping and stuff like that, but that list of seven. Really are those really all that bad? I mean yeah in some cases sure but always? Ok I’ll give you greed, greed is always bad but the other six? Lust, sloth, gluttony, envy, wrath and pride. Just incase you didn’t know them. Then there are some of those other ones on the lost tablets. I’m not typing them all out, because well it’s a lot of work. See sloth it works, now you don’t have to read them either. I’m really looking out for you here too. It’s a win, win. But come on all of them? There are a lot of things we say are bad but are they really. Like what you ask?
Well how about this, I mean really why does there have to be an emotional attachment to (fill in the blank). It just makes it all complicated. Yes I’m sure adding all the emotional stuff to it makes it a good thing, well it is a good thing with all that stuff added in, really? Can’t it just be a good thing without all the mess? I mean after if the emotional bit gets all banged up doesn’t it suck more later than without all that mess? See it can be good with or without. I know you are really beginning to think I’m a bad person. I’m not a bad person I have just done questionable things and I’m not even sure questionable is the right word. I’ve done things. Most of it I’m ok with others maybe not so much. I know that everyone else there me was fine with them too. I’m not blathering about it here but if you pour enough bourbon in my I’ll probably tell you. Yeah it is like truth serum. Remind me to buy up all the bourbon when I win the lottery so it can’t be used against me.
Then I’ll have thoughts that hey you know life would just be easier if people just did things the way I wanted them to do them.
Like I really think that my friend Hoover should get a PS3 so we can play MAG together. Or another friend who I think should take fashion advise from me even thought I really don’t have much fashion sense. The list goes on.
Sure everyone will think this sort of stuff I really say it out load.
Yes that doesn’t really have much to do with my malfunctioning moral compass but it does. Those are just on the minor end of the scale of things the bigger stuff really does require bourbon to get it out in the open.
So I’m sober a lot of the time too keep my mouth shut about my “questionable” thoughts. Then I’ll turn around and I have a thought that just doesn’t belong. Like recently I’ve found out that my favorite blogger has recently lost everything she owns in a fire. I mean everything. I want to help. I mean really sincerely want to help, with nothing in it for me. Right, I know. I mean I don’t even know this person at all except for her words. Which by the way are amazing. What I know about her is from what she blogs about her life and her thoughts and the way she writes, I find myself lost in the world she spins through her words. I’m standing in the same pub at the corner table having a beer or standing in the shop where she works as I read about her life. I think, man if I could write just half as good as her I would happy. The point is that I want to help this person I only know from the stuff she puts on line and a few personal e-mails exchanged years ago. I doubt she even remembers that we exchanged a few e-mails. Which goes against the other stuff in my head.
Then I’ll have thoughts about, insert annoying social conformity ritual, and I don’t care a hoot about it. Not even a little bit. I really think my alignment is lawful evil, yes I just referenced dungeons and dragons. But really some rules apply others are just annoying. I just get to decide which ones are annoying, well mostly you can pick a few. But not too many.
Maybe I’m not nearly as bad as I think I am or used to be. Which way is it supposed to point anyway.
That’s all for now, other stuff tomorrow, Cast thing and missions are coming soon. (nod) Yup, yup, yup (ala duckie)
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