Tuesday ramblings

My mind is preoccupied with so many things.
Have you ever seen the movie "falling down"
Well if you have its not as bad as that,
but man is my life getting complicated.
I still have my job so I won't be going postal anytime soon.
Did you know that is the number one way to die in the work place now. Just thought I would throw that in there.
So my mom calls me the other day and says "How are things going?" Like nothing has ever happened between us recently.
"Oh not too bad Ma" I say
"Are you sure" She says.
Like i wouldn't know whats going on in my own life. And thats an odd response too not that bad -- are you sure (looking out the window for a sniper)
oh not to bad just you wait and see not too bad
So now I'm half expecting court papers delivered to me. Some guy walking up to me saying aren't you so and so, I say yes and then he hands me papers "you're served, have a nice day" Probably going to sue me because I didn't become a priest and that messes up her chance for a prize.
That would top all of this stuff off -- so now I think I must have had some converstation with God that went something like this.
God asks "How I would like your life?"
"Interesting" I say
God says "Anything in particular you want to happen"
So I say "Oh you know
misery,
turmoil,
frustration,
and oh don't forget to add an extra helping of family dysfunction while your at it,
but let me succeed at the traditional things like college and developing good values, so I can be frustrated about none of it paying off like it does for everyone else.
Oh and I want to lose at least one job for working too hard, and then I want to have my family blame me for all their mistake too.
You think you could do that for me.
It would be a big help
Thanks"
Oh now I'm just sounding bitter.
So the thing is,
What I really mean is
(elton but it works & I need to find a new radio station)
I'm glad my life is interesting, but I could stand for it to be a bit more boring right about now. You know for a week or so. That would be nice huh don't you think.
Still can't seem to work things out with the girl either -- that's a bit frustrating. I don't know why I'm so stuck on this either I need to just take a day off and go somewhere with her. Problem is I can't catch her at home now and the phone tag game is getting silly.
I call leave a message
she calls leaves a message
I return her call
She returns mine and so on and so on and so on
The good thing is that she is at least leaving messages. I could just be calling and calling and not catching the hint. or maybe thats it
oh I really need to change the radio station now Heart -- yikes I really should hide the thing so the night shift guys don't change the station.
AHH there we go "Pepper" by BHS
some song lyrics from the previous
I think I'm beginning to ramble.
Yup I just scrolled back up -- I'm rambling
so I better go do something
oh like
I don't know